Thursday, July 20, 2006
This morning I watched from across the street as a house that had stood for sixty years came down in about six minutes. Instead of feeling remorse for what had been, I felt excitement at the thought of what would come to be. Change is inevitable.
A smart man, the one I'm currently dating (kazow is he hot), called me on my past: the things I'd let go of all too easily vs. the things I'd crazy-glued to my anger. When he laid it all out for me like a sidewalk sale, it looked ridiculous. I've thrown out all the objects that don't fit in my new situation -- and so if I wouldn't keep an ugly dress or carpet, why do I cling to ugly emotions like resentment and disappointment. Emotional clean-sweep, that's what's needed. And if a house that stood for sixty years can come down in six minutes, then it's not so impossible to ditch the remorse in favour of excitement for what is coming to be.
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